...through a scholarship grant, i was able to continue my secondary schooling. with almost bended knees, my mother talked to rev. father jimmy duero, pantabangan parish priest, to accept me as one of the parish scholars. arzaldy belmonte, my best friend was also given a grant.
bingo... the stories mentioned by my mother pricked and pounded father duero's heart, thus, he endowed a scholarship slot to me. when it rains, it pours. your correct, aside from the grant, i was told to reside at the convent so with Zaldy. in short free board and lodging while studying.
to compensate with father jim's generosity, we volunteered to be the cooked of the convent, though we did not have any background in cooking. we just believed that the circumstances would side on us and there were kind-hearted individual who would hepl us in the course of our cooking. so we learned to cook. aside from being a cook, we were also assigned to clean the whole school compound every morning (including the office and faculty rooms and the school comfort rooms and wash rooms every afternoon.
we learned a lot in the convent. i personally treasured my experiences as working student. i knew my dreams which i weaved back in the booster in aya was just few steps away from realization.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
i reminisced my birthdays
it was june 11, 1998, my birth date, when i was told to clean the stockroom at the second floor of dcy building.this was in preparation for the opening of classes for school year 1998-1999 at the asian college of science and technology, cabanatuan branch (ACSAT). I was then working in this tertiary academic institution as an English faculty.
while i was trying to haul out of the room the broken mono-blocks with arm rest and the non-functional cpu's, outdated monitors, idle computer tables and assorted documents, i saw students at the ground floor busy teasing each other, eating and chatting about the coming school year. i put a t-shirt on my head to cover and protect my face and my head and to prevent the dust to enter my nose and other openings. there i quickly reminisced my past birthdays which i used to celebrate with the same situation which i was experiencing on that very moment. in almost all my birthdays when i started my teen life,i used to celebrate them with the same as this. i was like an abu sayyaf or a wanted criminal by the authorities for whatever case i had done wrong. unconsciously, i put that t-shirt because i didn't want my students and other students saw me in such a horrible situation. my blue t-shirt turned beige and my maong pants seemed to be a chakki one. i was covered by the dust wholly. no one dared to help and paid attention to what i was doing except dheng, an english faculty, who gave me a snack and morena the school clerk who bought my meal.
i don't know if it was just a coincidence, but for God sake, every time my special day comes, i was covering my whole head for if not planting vegetable in the river's bank or fishing in linwan, pantok or kalbo, vicinity of the pantabangan dam, together with shahong tino or arzalde belmonte, my best friend, i was taking charcoal from the hole where i made as chimney. as i had promised to nanay, this little deeds were my contributions to her to augment the family's income.
four, five six and seven hours after, i presented the newly cleaned room to Engr. Dennis Agtay, our school director. i was then a bit depressed and sad for i felt that education which was supposed to make difference in my life became instrument in making me remember all my past birthdays without cake and candle, without happy faces of friends and guests, without applause and greetings of family and my very special friends and without fireworks and pop songs and without gin-coke or juice as what had been done by teenagers.
the next day, i became happy for the room i cleaned was developed as the school library. i felt satisfied with all my efforts in cleaning the room. my exhaustion during my birthday was very fruitful. the dust which covered me seemed like glitters which will lighten up the dreams and hopes of the students.
the following month, i was promoted and appointed chair of the general education department.(morena was appointed librarian.)
the following year, march 29, 1999, i submitted my irrevocable resignation to Engr. Agtay and bade goodbye to all my colleagues and my students.
on 06-11-99, i celebrated my birthday with nanay, kuya nonoy and myline at my house in #22 h-site m.k.d, talavera, nueva ecija.
while i was trying to haul out of the room the broken mono-blocks with arm rest and the non-functional cpu's, outdated monitors, idle computer tables and assorted documents, i saw students at the ground floor busy teasing each other, eating and chatting about the coming school year. i put a t-shirt on my head to cover and protect my face and my head and to prevent the dust to enter my nose and other openings. there i quickly reminisced my past birthdays which i used to celebrate with the same situation which i was experiencing on that very moment. in almost all my birthdays when i started my teen life,i used to celebrate them with the same as this. i was like an abu sayyaf or a wanted criminal by the authorities for whatever case i had done wrong. unconsciously, i put that t-shirt because i didn't want my students and other students saw me in such a horrible situation. my blue t-shirt turned beige and my maong pants seemed to be a chakki one. i was covered by the dust wholly. no one dared to help and paid attention to what i was doing except dheng, an english faculty, who gave me a snack and morena the school clerk who bought my meal.
i don't know if it was just a coincidence, but for God sake, every time my special day comes, i was covering my whole head for if not planting vegetable in the river's bank or fishing in linwan, pantok or kalbo, vicinity of the pantabangan dam, together with shahong tino or arzalde belmonte, my best friend, i was taking charcoal from the hole where i made as chimney. as i had promised to nanay, this little deeds were my contributions to her to augment the family's income.
four, five six and seven hours after, i presented the newly cleaned room to Engr. Dennis Agtay, our school director. i was then a bit depressed and sad for i felt that education which was supposed to make difference in my life became instrument in making me remember all my past birthdays without cake and candle, without happy faces of friends and guests, without applause and greetings of family and my very special friends and without fireworks and pop songs and without gin-coke or juice as what had been done by teenagers.
the next day, i became happy for the room i cleaned was developed as the school library. i felt satisfied with all my efforts in cleaning the room. my exhaustion during my birthday was very fruitful. the dust which covered me seemed like glitters which will lighten up the dreams and hopes of the students.
the following month, i was promoted and appointed chair of the general education department.(morena was appointed librarian.)
the following year, march 29, 1999, i submitted my irrevocable resignation to Engr. Agtay and bade goodbye to all my colleagues and my students.
on 06-11-99, i celebrated my birthday with nanay, kuya nonoy and myline at my house in #22 h-site m.k.d, talavera, nueva ecija.
sya ang dati kong katipan..
siya ang matiyagang umiintindi sa akin. ang president, manager, senate president, speaker of the house, governor, mayor, barangay captain at boss ng aming tahanan. 23 inches lang ang bewang niya noon, ngayon kabaliktaran na yata (magaling kasi ako mag alaga, njenjenjenje.) walang biro seksi noon yan wait nyo post ko dito pic nya nung ang tingin nya sa pagkain kaaway. Ngayon kaibigan nya lahat ng food.
natuwa ako ng tatlong sunod ay nabigyan sya ng award bilang most outstanding employee ng Philrice sa kategorya ng Admin assistant. nahanap na rin nya ang kanyang sarili tapos tutularan ito ng aming mga anak. sabi ko nga sa kanya mukhang ginagawa na niyang hanap-buhay ito.
buti nga, mana sa kanya ang aming mga anak, mula sa talino hangang sa hilig sa pag-aaral. (pati sa kalusugan, bwahahahaha.) matiyaga sa sa pagpapalaki ng mga bata. mahilig at matiyaga rin sa pagbili ng ice cream, ng cake, siomai, sitsirya, sofft drinks, leche plan, butsi,, black forest, donuts atbp, at mahilig kunain habang nag pa-farmville at cafe world. magkaka-frequency silang mag-iina.
Pero sana lang pagbigyan na nya ang hiling ko. wag nang uminon ng pills para magkaroon na ng kapatid na lalaki ang kanyang mga anak. I am longing for a son. for i know once our daughters become teens or full grown ladies, they would no longer be clinging with no nor would like to go with me whenever we have a travel. Secrets would also be shared to their mother not to me. And whom will i talk to. nothins but the TV, newspaper, cellphone or laptop. of course i also wanted my surname to be used by a would-be-son. huhhhhhhhhhh... but the pills are too many in her closet. shall i stole them, flush them to the bowl, put them in a trash bag or give them to our prolific cat who never miss to deliver her kittens several times a year.
who ever would read this, please help me explain this to her. IWANTASONASONASONASON...............................................................
malalaki na ang anak ng dati kong nobya
mga anak namin ni dyig, tawag ko sa dati kong katipan, na ina ng aking mga anak.
bilis nga araw, malapit na silang magdalaga. ung nasa taas ng pool si Ves Eva Revline, un nasa pool, si Verline Gaudene. natutuwa ako dahil, parehas silang may hilig sa pag-aaral. nagmana sila sa aming magasawa. mabuti naman bata pa lang sila, alam na nila ang value ng education. pero, pinaiintindi rin namin sa kanila na dapat di sila maging trabahador, dapat magtayo sila ng negosyo at tumulong sa pag create ng trabaho. oo, bata pa lang sila pinaiintindi na namin sa kanila ito. ito siguro ang maitutulong namin para sa susunod na mga taon, mabawasan ang walng trabaho sa ating baayan.
ganun pa man, palagi naming pinararamdam at ipinararanas ang pagigiging bata nila. binabalanse namin ito para maing balanse ang kanilang paglaki.
ang hirap pa lang maging ama. dami mong plano, pero alam mo namang di rin ito ang masusunod. lalaki ang mga bata at pipili ng mundo nila. pero sana kahit papaano, ma realize nila na dapat silang maging taga gawa ng trabaho at di manggagawa sa malalaking kumpanya ng dayuhan.
Friday, November 6, 2009
edtech pa rin
Based on my teaching experience for almost 15 years now, the most practical and useful software is power point. Maybe other faculty will rebut me with my ideas however, because i am always tied up with a lot of things-from my teaching tasks to administrative responsibilities; from business to family related activities; and from social undertakings to religious ones-i think power point is the most easy, useful, effective and efficient technology related instructional materials.
I agree with the conditioning theory of Pavlov, and the learning theory of Lev Vygotsky and John Piaget. Both of them believed that learning is a product of a system. In my case, the power point presentation is one of the instructional tools which help the students understand the lesson. Students who are exposed to the learning environment interact with the significant person-the teacher. I as a faculty uses the power point presentation. So, in this case, i am conveying lessons thru the use of significant instructional materials which help the students understand easily the subject matter.
Preparing a power point presentation is not time consuming. So i could use some of my time doing other responsibilities that i had mentioned above. I case i need some changes with the one i made, editing is easy to be done also. In case i want to keep the original presentation but i need some parts to be edited to be used to other course, i could do it also. Now that power point presentation converter is available in the internet for free, i may now convert some of my works into movies.
Though, there are other available software nowadays which can be used as aids in teaching-learning process, people are still using power point. For example presenters in seminar workshops. Most of their presentations are made out of the power point.
I agree with the conditioning theory of Pavlov, and the learning theory of Lev Vygotsky and John Piaget. Both of them believed that learning is a product of a system. In my case, the power point presentation is one of the instructional tools which help the students understand the lesson. Students who are exposed to the learning environment interact with the significant person-the teacher. I as a faculty uses the power point presentation. So, in this case, i am conveying lessons thru the use of significant instructional materials which help the students understand easily the subject matter.
Preparing a power point presentation is not time consuming. So i could use some of my time doing other responsibilities that i had mentioned above. I case i need some changes with the one i made, editing is easy to be done also. In case i want to keep the original presentation but i need some parts to be edited to be used to other course, i could do it also. Now that power point presentation converter is available in the internet for free, i may now convert some of my works into movies.
Though, there are other available software nowadays which can be used as aids in teaching-learning process, people are still using power point. For example presenters in seminar workshops. Most of their presentations are made out of the power point.
mula rizal hanggang pantabangan...
ayun, halos limang taon kaming namuhay sa rizal na walang ina at ama. pero di gaya ng dati, di na ako pumapalahaw ng iyak. mas madalas unan ang nakakarinig ng hikbi ko. dahil itinanim ko sa puso't isipan na matapang ako. matapang kaming dalawa ni kuya nonoy. paminsan minsan pinaaanod ko sa tubig irigasyon ang aking mga luha. habang naliligo o naninisid ng tulya (mas kilala ko noon bilang dukyang). (may mga kuwento pa ako, ipa flash back ko na lang.)
Bumalik si nanay mula sa tarlac dahil sa mga balita tungkol sa amin. nag alsa balutan kami papuntang pantabangan sa kinakapatid daw ni nanay, kina tito frank asawa ni ate milis.
sa isang maliit na kuwartong nandoon na lahat kami nakatira. nadoon na lahat kasi sa umaga, salas, sa gabi kuwarto na rin, pagkakain na kusina, at pag may bisita, e di receiving area. masaya dahil package deal ika nga. nakaupo kaming kumakain sa sahig, tabi-tabi kaming natutulog sa sahig parin na iyon. kung alam ko na ngang magbigay ng award noon, binigyan ko ng certificate of appreciation ang tinuluyan naming kwarto na iyon.
labandera si nanay at tumutulong sa paghahain sa kantina. sa 180 na sweldo kada buwan, nakakakain na kami isa o dalawang beses isang araw. masaya na ito para sa akin pero hindi kay kuya romy, sa panganay namin. naglayas siya. lumuwas pa-maynila.hanggang sa wala na kaming balita.
madalas naglalaba si nanay sa booster (malaking outlet ng tubig sa reservoir ng pantabangan dam. habang naglalaba sya, binubuo ko sa aking diwa ang mga pangarap na akala ko ay mahirap matupad.
nadagdagan ang kapatid kong di namin kapiling. si ditse (leonor) namasukang katulong sa rizal, sa isang titser. si sanse (ate virginia), sa rizal din. si ate mila nag-aral sa rizal ito daw kasi ang pwedeng mag-ahon sa amin sa pagdarahop.
mabait talaga ang Diyos, nakakuha kami ng bahay, bahay na may kusina, sala, at dalawang kuwarto. di na kasi kasya sa bahay nila ate milis ang mga drayber ng baliwag transit inc. mautak si nanay, kumuha ng bahay at ginawang boarder ang ilang drayber. nagkasideline ako. taga walis ng bus sa hapon. singkuwenta hanggang piso ang bigay sa akin.
nakapag-aral ako ng grade 1 sa gulang na walo. pinakamatanda sa klase. nakilala ko si mrs. abang, ang aking adviser. naging paborito niya ako, di dahil sipsip ako, kundi dahil madalas niya akong makita na di nagre-recess o kaya ay nilupak and baon.
matapos ang taon, nakita ko na ang bunga ng binuo kong pangarap sa booster, habang naglalaba si nanay.
...itutuloy muli...
Bumalik si nanay mula sa tarlac dahil sa mga balita tungkol sa amin. nag alsa balutan kami papuntang pantabangan sa kinakapatid daw ni nanay, kina tito frank asawa ni ate milis.
sa isang maliit na kuwartong nandoon na lahat kami nakatira. nadoon na lahat kasi sa umaga, salas, sa gabi kuwarto na rin, pagkakain na kusina, at pag may bisita, e di receiving area. masaya dahil package deal ika nga. nakaupo kaming kumakain sa sahig, tabi-tabi kaming natutulog sa sahig parin na iyon. kung alam ko na ngang magbigay ng award noon, binigyan ko ng certificate of appreciation ang tinuluyan naming kwarto na iyon.
labandera si nanay at tumutulong sa paghahain sa kantina. sa 180 na sweldo kada buwan, nakakakain na kami isa o dalawang beses isang araw. masaya na ito para sa akin pero hindi kay kuya romy, sa panganay namin. naglayas siya. lumuwas pa-maynila.hanggang sa wala na kaming balita.
madalas naglalaba si nanay sa booster (malaking outlet ng tubig sa reservoir ng pantabangan dam. habang naglalaba sya, binubuo ko sa aking diwa ang mga pangarap na akala ko ay mahirap matupad.
nadagdagan ang kapatid kong di namin kapiling. si ditse (leonor) namasukang katulong sa rizal, sa isang titser. si sanse (ate virginia), sa rizal din. si ate mila nag-aral sa rizal ito daw kasi ang pwedeng mag-ahon sa amin sa pagdarahop.
mabait talaga ang Diyos, nakakuha kami ng bahay, bahay na may kusina, sala, at dalawang kuwarto. di na kasi kasya sa bahay nila ate milis ang mga drayber ng baliwag transit inc. mautak si nanay, kumuha ng bahay at ginawang boarder ang ilang drayber. nagkasideline ako. taga walis ng bus sa hapon. singkuwenta hanggang piso ang bigay sa akin.
nakapag-aral ako ng grade 1 sa gulang na walo. pinakamatanda sa klase. nakilala ko si mrs. abang, ang aking adviser. naging paborito niya ako, di dahil sipsip ako, kundi dahil madalas niya akong makita na di nagre-recess o kaya ay nilupak and baon.
matapos ang taon, nakita ko na ang bunga ng binuo kong pangarap sa booster, habang naglalaba si nanay.
...itutuloy muli...
Thursday, November 5, 2009
technology & me
As a faculty, i would like to share my personal experiences as a high school faculty then and as a college faculty now. When i was in high school, i always made it a point to teach with instructional materials. It is always a part of my preparation before i went to the classroom for the day's discussion, lecture or concept paper making and or quiz.
Because almost all the faculty in ULHS-Palusapis, are acquainted and good in computer, it is expected that our students were also good. Thus, i capitalized this talents by my students. I used to prepare computer based or computer made/assisted instructional materials. Most of the time it was the power point, which was oftentimes used. I was happy then that my students were appreciating my work. I was also asking my students to make their own presentations based on the given report to each one. With little assistance, my students were doing their own power point presentation very presentable.
I college, personally, i viewed the instructional technology as very useful to me. For instance in Social Dimensions, whenever i used a movie maker presentation, i noticed that my student's interest were so high. They were very active and got high grades whenever short quizzes-essay or objective types-were given.
I also see it as very useful on my part for i could keep the old presentations and could used them again as the time arises. Economically, it is cheap than the old types of technological materials, fountain pen and manila paper and cartolina for instance. There are also software which are very practical to use such as power point and microsoft word or excel. Several templates are available in the internet.
In short the modern technology made the teacher's task easy...
I was happy that i enrolled Ph.D. Honestly speaking i learned a lot in Edtech. The power director which i just experienced to use now is one of the many topics which i like and appreciated. Before, i really do not mind the internet, now i am beginning to appreciate it.
post script.
i had mixed emotions when i saw the posted yellow cartolina on the education bulletin board bearing the names of EEd students who were given award in edtech 1 under Prof. Vilma M. Salas. (Shes my former teacher in educ technology when manila paper and fountain pen were the top in the lists of needed teaching materials of teachers,student teachers and presenters). At first i was happy because students are now exposed to different modern types of instructional materials specially the technology related ones which are very useful in teaching -learning process. Teaching probably will become virtual, interactive and more interesting.
On the other hand, i have reservations, for i know that there are several primary and secondary schools in our country which do not have the basic necessities in school. It may be located in urban or rural areas). With the typhoons Ondoy, Ramil and Santi, there were various schools which were submerged into water and mud. If not totally wrecked, school facilities, and instructional materials were gone. The hopes and dreams of parents and poor little minds were vanished. It needs several years again to establish the school buildings and bring back the teaching materials.Will the dreamers and hopefuls wait as the authorities establish the pillar of their dreams or opted to wait as philanthropists, charitable institutions, and TV stations bequeath help and embark on re-building these avenues?
The modern types of technology is useless in such areas. Teachers will start once again from zero and will become resourceful and creative in their respective classes.
Because almost all the faculty in ULHS-Palusapis, are acquainted and good in computer, it is expected that our students were also good. Thus, i capitalized this talents by my students. I used to prepare computer based or computer made/assisted instructional materials. Most of the time it was the power point, which was oftentimes used. I was happy then that my students were appreciating my work. I was also asking my students to make their own presentations based on the given report to each one. With little assistance, my students were doing their own power point presentation very presentable.
I college, personally, i viewed the instructional technology as very useful to me. For instance in Social Dimensions, whenever i used a movie maker presentation, i noticed that my student's interest were so high. They were very active and got high grades whenever short quizzes-essay or objective types-were given.
I also see it as very useful on my part for i could keep the old presentations and could used them again as the time arises. Economically, it is cheap than the old types of technological materials, fountain pen and manila paper and cartolina for instance. There are also software which are very practical to use such as power point and microsoft word or excel. Several templates are available in the internet.
In short the modern technology made the teacher's task easy...
I was happy that i enrolled Ph.D. Honestly speaking i learned a lot in Edtech. The power director which i just experienced to use now is one of the many topics which i like and appreciated. Before, i really do not mind the internet, now i am beginning to appreciate it.
post script.
i had mixed emotions when i saw the posted yellow cartolina on the education bulletin board bearing the names of EEd students who were given award in edtech 1 under Prof. Vilma M. Salas. (Shes my former teacher in educ technology when manila paper and fountain pen were the top in the lists of needed teaching materials of teachers,student teachers and presenters). At first i was happy because students are now exposed to different modern types of instructional materials specially the technology related ones which are very useful in teaching -learning process. Teaching probably will become virtual, interactive and more interesting.
On the other hand, i have reservations, for i know that there are several primary and secondary schools in our country which do not have the basic necessities in school. It may be located in urban or rural areas). With the typhoons Ondoy, Ramil and Santi, there were various schools which were submerged into water and mud. If not totally wrecked, school facilities, and instructional materials were gone. The hopes and dreams of parents and poor little minds were vanished. It needs several years again to establish the school buildings and bring back the teaching materials.Will the dreamers and hopefuls wait as the authorities establish the pillar of their dreams or opted to wait as philanthropists, charitable institutions, and TV stations bequeath help and embark on re-building these avenues?
The modern types of technology is useless in such areas. Teachers will start once again from zero and will become resourceful and creative in their respective classes.
edtech
Educational technology refers to the use of all human inventions and discoveries to satisfy our educational need and desire. These inventions and discoveries can be devices, tools, equipment, activities, procedure and processes. Various inventions are the educational media. Instructional technology, on the other hand, is an aspects of educational technology that are concerned with instruction as contrasted to designs and operations of educational institutions. It is a systematic way of designing, carrying out, and evaluating the total process of learning and teaching in terms of specific objectives.
baliktanaw sa pinagmulan
inaligata ko muli ang aking pinagmulan. susubukan kong idugtong ang mga pangyayari kung paano ako nakarating sa sa tinutungtungan ko ngayon...
un nga...
dalawang taon matapos akong iluwal sa ospital sa olongapo city, na dedo si tatay... sabi ni nanay sobrang sipag daw kasi.
prostrated engineer si tatay, tubong iriga, sa bicol, angkan ng ng Puso sa ina at dilla sa ama.
si nanay sa gulod, rizal, nueva ecija, angkan ng Justo at Jepa.
e di ayun, umuwi kami ng rizal matapos ang libing ni tatay.
di gaya ng dati, di na makapaglaro ng malaking manika si ate mila. wala na ring malaking armalite at robot si kuya. si ate neneng nagmukhang nanay namin. si ditse, tumbang preso na ang laro wala na ang tv na mala-box.
si sanse, laging taga-igib, taga walis at si kuya nonoy, palaging niloloko ng mga kapitbahay.
nangayat si nanay dahil sa paghahanap ng trabaho...hanggang isang umaga, sabi ni ate nasa tarlac si nanay, namasukan bilang katulong.
nadugtungan ang mga hikbi ko sa ampunan sa isang reception center sa maynila.. inoperahan si nanay noon sa goiter. anim na buwan kaming limang magkakapatid noon sa center. di kasama si ate at kuya, bantay sila ni nanay.
kinukulong ako sa comfort room pag umiiyak dahil hinahanap ko si nanay. tinitiis ko ang gutom sa pagaakalang pag di ako kumain, maaaawa sila at ililitaw si nanay. pinapalitan ko ng palahaw ang gutom dahil ito ang alam ko na magpapa uwi kay nanay. mali ako. nasa ospital pala sya.
di ko alam kung mabait ang pagkakataon o naging resourceful kami ni kuya nonoy. natuto kaming mangalap ng mga pwedeng ibenta. nililibot namin ang mga barangay ng rizal, ginigiba namin ang pader ng mga abandonadong bahay. mahal ang bakal.tanso, aluminyo at bote. pero lahat na halos ng bata natutu sa aming gawain..
kailangang umisip ng bagong mapagkakakitaan.
sa palengke...maraming pagkain sa palengke..pero wala kaming pera..hanggang isang araw natuto kaming sumalisi...dati goma ng tirador lang, nang lumaon pati panglaman sa tiyan.
...ayos may panglaman na naman sa tiyan...
....itutuloy... wait nyo sana
un nga...
dalawang taon matapos akong iluwal sa ospital sa olongapo city, na dedo si tatay... sabi ni nanay sobrang sipag daw kasi.
prostrated engineer si tatay, tubong iriga, sa bicol, angkan ng ng Puso sa ina at dilla sa ama.
si nanay sa gulod, rizal, nueva ecija, angkan ng Justo at Jepa.
e di ayun, umuwi kami ng rizal matapos ang libing ni tatay.
di gaya ng dati, di na makapaglaro ng malaking manika si ate mila. wala na ring malaking armalite at robot si kuya. si ate neneng nagmukhang nanay namin. si ditse, tumbang preso na ang laro wala na ang tv na mala-box.
si sanse, laging taga-igib, taga walis at si kuya nonoy, palaging niloloko ng mga kapitbahay.
nangayat si nanay dahil sa paghahanap ng trabaho...hanggang isang umaga, sabi ni ate nasa tarlac si nanay, namasukan bilang katulong.
nadugtungan ang mga hikbi ko sa ampunan sa isang reception center sa maynila.. inoperahan si nanay noon sa goiter. anim na buwan kaming limang magkakapatid noon sa center. di kasama si ate at kuya, bantay sila ni nanay.
kinukulong ako sa comfort room pag umiiyak dahil hinahanap ko si nanay. tinitiis ko ang gutom sa pagaakalang pag di ako kumain, maaaawa sila at ililitaw si nanay. pinapalitan ko ng palahaw ang gutom dahil ito ang alam ko na magpapa uwi kay nanay. mali ako. nasa ospital pala sya.
di ko alam kung mabait ang pagkakataon o naging resourceful kami ni kuya nonoy. natuto kaming mangalap ng mga pwedeng ibenta. nililibot namin ang mga barangay ng rizal, ginigiba namin ang pader ng mga abandonadong bahay. mahal ang bakal.tanso, aluminyo at bote. pero lahat na halos ng bata natutu sa aming gawain..
kailangang umisip ng bagong mapagkakakitaan.
sa palengke...maraming pagkain sa palengke..pero wala kaming pera..hanggang isang araw natuto kaming sumalisi...dati goma ng tirador lang, nang lumaon pati panglaman sa tiyan.
...ayos may panglaman na naman sa tiyan...
....itutuloy... wait nyo sana
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I hate to do what i did today, but i need to...
i presided over the meeting of the ced-sc this morning. i know it is not right but... the council needs direction...ced students are longing for activities that would somehow showcase their talents, explore their potentialities, do other peculiar things, socialize with other departments and the likes. i am not the only person who can do it, i know other ced-officers can preside, it's just that they have no enough courage--maybe intimidated,, ashamed or very reserved--to volunteer themselves. so i did.
our call time is 9:00 a.m. but they all arrived late, except Christian. so i talked to the dean about the plans or participation (supposedly plans by the sc) for the coming education week on Dec 2-5. then went to nixon's and dr. alberto's office and called ruel montanez. presto! everybody is available and committed to be speakers of the parallel seminars on the second day of the celebration.
there was silence when the meeting stated fifteen minutes before 11 am.
"you can leave the ced-sc office and the the position you are currently handling if you think you are not capable to perform all the duties and responsibilities given to you by your fellow students," my first statement.
then i add, "di karuwangan ang pag amin na di mo kayang gampanan ang pagiging opisyal."
then i asked each one about his/her assessment on the past semester and what went wrong with the ced-sc. everyone admitted his/her shortcomings and promised to be active this 2nd semester.
this erollment, and education week will serve as acid test to the promises of the council officers. i hope each one will become active as he/she promised. and i hope that ced students will appreciate the activities the ced-sc will launch on education week..
our call time is 9:00 a.m. but they all arrived late, except Christian. so i talked to the dean about the plans or participation (supposedly plans by the sc) for the coming education week on Dec 2-5. then went to nixon's and dr. alberto's office and called ruel montanez. presto! everybody is available and committed to be speakers of the parallel seminars on the second day of the celebration.
there was silence when the meeting stated fifteen minutes before 11 am.
"you can leave the ced-sc office and the the position you are currently handling if you think you are not capable to perform all the duties and responsibilities given to you by your fellow students," my first statement.
then i add, "di karuwangan ang pag amin na di mo kayang gampanan ang pagiging opisyal."
then i asked each one about his/her assessment on the past semester and what went wrong with the ced-sc. everyone admitted his/her shortcomings and promised to be active this 2nd semester.
this erollment, and education week will serve as acid test to the promises of the council officers. i hope each one will become active as he/she promised. and i hope that ced students will appreciate the activities the ced-sc will launch on education week..
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
contemplating 'bout my Ph.D. course
It' s 12 midnight.. i'm still awake, thinking whether i should finish all my requirements in my Ph.D. or stop doing anything and let my professors give me an INC (grade) and eventually failing grades...
With my age, i know that i am matured enough not to think of the importance of pursuing higher education, especially so that i am in the academe molding and helping others fulfill their dreams or should i say their parents' dreams.
But i am not tired. With my physique i m not easily exhausted. With my attitude, i'm pretty sure i can do the requirements my professors gave us.
But i have second thought, maybe because of the orientations that i have now. I knew the importance of education. I knew that prioritizing this would open several opportunities in the academic world. But why the sudden break.... Jekjekjekjek...to be continued na lang po...
With my age, i know that i am matured enough not to think of the importance of pursuing higher education, especially so that i am in the academe molding and helping others fulfill their dreams or should i say their parents' dreams.
But i am not tired. With my physique i m not easily exhausted. With my attitude, i'm pretty sure i can do the requirements my professors gave us.
But i have second thought, maybe because of the orientations that i have now. I knew the importance of education. I knew that prioritizing this would open several opportunities in the academic world. But why the sudden break.... Jekjekjekjek...to be continued na lang po...
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